I bid fair well to Capernwray my home:(

 So my time here at Capernwray has drawn to a close, after a short but long six months. Time sure has gone by fast, it feels like just yesterday that I was getting on a plane going who knows where and meeting a bunch of strangers. The who knows where has now turned into home for me and the strangers are now family and friends. I am sad to leave this place I call home but I am soo excited to go home and see my family and my actually home. I am excited for normal life, to move on and start the rest of my journey in life. I have loved my time here and wish everyone could come and experience it. I can remember the first week here meeting everyone and doing a school dance and the hot sunny days. Where Zach jumped in the canal and being able to go out for walks late in the evening and not freezing your butt off. I remember trying to get to know all 175 students names, I now think I have it down. I can remember being overwhelmed by the baggage that I thought I had left at home but yet being reminded of it and learning how to deal with it. Then having a great peace about giving it to God. I have built relationships with people that I know will last a life tiime and I have grown in my relationship with Christ. I can now call myself beautiful and actually believe it and I can say that I know what I want to do and be extremely excited about it. I have been able to give my stresses and worries to God and know that he is my strength. I can say that Christ is living in my and doing amazing things in me, I am not saying i am perfect I never will be but I am growing and learning and changing slowly. It's going to be a hard journey one that Satan will try and attack and verr me off course time and time again but I will hold strong to Gods strength. Please dont expect me to be perfect of completely changed but also dont expect me to be my old person either.
And now for what the last week looked like it short. Mon and tues we had lectures still plus during spare time people either started packing, avoided packing and hung out with people or tried to finish old testament reading. Wed we still had lectures but in the evenying we had our final banquet, where we spent the day trying to pack as well as trying to get pretty and dressed up. I had no desire to do either of them and wish I could have just slept it was rather emotional. It was the last actually evening with everyone and was just kinda depressing. We had a dance in the evening and then me and a bunch of girls got together and went for a walk and prayed. The next morning we got to sleep in and have a late breakfast and then our final lecture with Rob Whittaker. This was followed by a mass packing party and cleaning. Everything had to be cleaned before the internet turned on or we could hang out, however those who finished early hung out in the lounge hall way signing each others yearbooks. Then there was tea and more signing followed by our last service, which was emotional and sad and then we had sometime before the London coach came to pick everyone up going down the london. It was rather odd, I can cry a lot yet I did not really cry at all. However once they left and things calmed down but not really I made my way to bed and stayed up thinking about how I wont see most of these people again. I was then awaken at the lovely hour of 5:30 am by one of my favourite people Ali Mayer who came to say goodbye. I will miss this girl, she has been such a blessing the last couple of weeks. I was then kept up by Megan, Sophie and Caitlyn at 6:30 when they came to say goodbye, if it wasnt so early I probably would have cried even more, these girls have been some of my bestfriends the last 6 months and I love them all so much. We had breakfast which I then had to say good bye to my friend Katey from germany which was the worst thing ever, I balled my eyes our And then after breaky was time to get cleaned up and spend a lot of time waiting till we left at 9:45 am which was just as hard. I had to say bye to everyone who was left and it was easy to say bye to the ones you are going to see again. It was hard but nice to say bye to Zach, i will miss the boy but I will see him again.Then it was time to begin my train journey down to Bristol which I got there around 3pm and had to take 3 different trains with a very heavy suit case and a back pack. I took a few flights of stairs, getting on and off the train and managed to only bruise my self 2 times and fall just once. I was picked up by Teresa my moms pen pal and am now staying at her lovley house with her 3 sons. Ieven got to have a bubble bath and watch tv which I havent done in the last 6 months. I have eatten lots and hung out and talked. I look forward to the rest of my travels.
Day 2- Bristol
So I am still in this random town, but I got to sleep in, make my own breakfast and relax before heading of to a town called CHEDDER. Crazy to think that people  have to be like 'I live in Chedder' Chedder cheese? Did you know its not famous for its cheese but rather for the Gorge. You can climb upthe rock face and the funny thing is that the one side of it you have to pay to climb but if you cross the road you can pretty much do the same hike and not pay. So which do you think we did? The one you didnt have to pay for and it was quite the climb it was rather steep and some parts where slippery but we made it to the top and it was pretty sweet up there because you could see over everything. We then went and walked around the town stopping at a Sweet shop of course and a few other nick nack shops and then heading to Blaise castle, we didnt get time to see the castle because it started to pour down with rain before we made it there so we went to the musuem. Before that we visited this awesome parkish area that has about 10 really tiny adorable cottages that were built for the people who worked in the Blaise castle. They were soooooo cute, I actually want to live in them, they are really small though., It was literally a sitting area/dining aread downstairs and upstairs I think 1 or 2 bedrooms if you were lucky. The outsides have seeats attached to the house. Then later in the evening we went and headed off to the pool at this counrty club. So this pool was amazing I got to go in a stream room, hot tub, did some swimming and went in the Sauna!! Oh boy do i miss my sauna nights with my caperwray saunaers. Theres a group of us that are in the sauna every mon and wed night and have been going since first term. After the sauna theres this bucket that fills up with cold water and you can dump it on yourself and so Alan, Teresa oldest son dared me to do it and so I did twice, rather chilli but quite refresshing as well. We then visisted and had tea and now I am off to bed to head down to London for a few days and then to Barcelona, Germany and then back here again. Pray for safe travels, fun times and amazing memories as well as beinging able to smoothly transition back into normal life. Love you lots and I am home sooon enough!!

10 day outreach!! God my strength!!

Hey so this is slightly late, We got back from 10 day out reach just the other day and I have to say I had a fantastic time! I wasn't worried or nervous in going at all, i was fully trusting that God had it all under control and he did. I was stretch and I grew and I have done things now that I never thought I could do. Our week went something like this Monday-Thurs we did prayer visiting during the day, we also had two school assemblies that we took part in. We taught primary school kids a song and a story as well Chris told them about his life. I also took part in 3 different small groups through out the week, where we studied the life of Gideon. I think I learned more then the people we were teaching the lesson to. Wed night me and 4 other girls took part in the girl guides group, and we just talked with them abou where we were from and then played ladders and I got to remember my days as a guide. I also got a thinking day badge! After the guides meeting there was a mans evening going on at a local pub however they could not stay there and do the talk that was planned so last minute us girls and some ladies from the church had to change the plans and set up to have 80 men come to the church for tea and coffee and biscuits. It was quite eventful and I actually enjoyed serving and helping with the last minute change. Thursday was actually our day off and so we headed out towards trafford Center, which is their big mall in Manchester and so yes I bought my self some new pants and a cute top. Friday I hit up every age group of people first we had a connection lunch with the people of Sale west and then there was an off limits +50 tea and then we had rocks and rockets and Projects, which are there youth groups they start at age 6 -18 all in one evening. Projects which was the older kids, we lead the whole thing so we played games and then me and Jillian shared our testamonies we both have very different ones so it was cool. The teens really enjoyed the evening. Saturday was the concert in the evening, that was done by this Christian artisit, who has an amazing voice and a crazy testamony. It was a great evening. Saturday we had the morning off so me and Sophie went out into Sale and did a little bit of exploring before heading off to the kids event down at Sale west. And then the concert. Sunday was my big day, after having a late night at the concert, I got a lack of sleep and had to head off to church early to prepare for my message. I wasnt nervous at all, well i had a few butterflies but other then that I didnt cry and I gave it and it went really well. I spoke on James 1:2-8, which is about the trials that we face and just seeing it in a much more joyful perspective and seeing them as a learning experience and a time to grow. I had some great feed back and some people who really enjoyed it. It doesnt mean I am preacher or anything by any means however it showed that I could do anything through God who actually does give you strength. I was truly relying on God and trusting that he would help me out and he did, he took away my nerves and spoke through my words to other people. It was also really cool cause one of the guys we prayer visited to, he came to church service to hear me preach and share. He was the guy that was really angry with God and with the church and he was truly suffering a great deal. It was sweet to see him there. After church we had lunch with the whole team and then relaxed with our host families before heading back out to the evening church service which was sweet. I loved my time at Sale and will remember it for a long time to come. I grew a great deal from the time there and was able to see myself being able to do anything that I want and that God does have a plan for me and he can use me just the way I am. And I love know that, its cool to be able to see that God can and will use you when the time is right. I miss the people there already, they were so awesome, I am going there again before heading home.
And so then there was 10 days left and so this past week has been pretty much just hanging out. We had two different lecture series, one of which was Rob doing more about Getting the King out of the Boy and then the other was Hans Peter Royer? From Austria Capernwray and he did it on Turning Truth into Reality. He was so awesome, everything he said was so pratical. The lecture that really got me thinking was his one on gratifulness, he was just saying to be thankful for things in our life that arent always easy to be thankful for. And so i have started being thankful for the little things in my life and so whenever I start thinking about bad things or just complaining about something in my life I dont like I find something that I am thankful for whether it is something big  or small and just remind myself that there is a lot of good in my life. I decided its a lot better way to live then to live thinking about all the bad in my life. So what else can I remember about this past week, I walked and swam a lot this week. Wed we went on an adventure with Kent, Eliana, Laura and Courtney, we went up this hilly mountain, did some trespassing crossed a few train tracks, which is really not allowed here and went to this shack, it was a lot of fun. I also went out to Grans and did some baking with Ali, Jessica and Megan. It was fun I really love those girls so much they have been so amazing.  During some of our lecture blocks we had recap of outreach, everyone had to share a little 4 minute thing about outreach. Friday was cleaning day, everyone had to clean, most of the girls were inside while the boys were out doing construction or digging trenches or whatever else is considered manly work. I however got to sew curtains with one other girl. And then the afternoon I spent reading and just hanging out. Friday evening was family night and so we went bowling and me and briar didnt do so well we lost against brother Kent. And then we played a monkey game before heading back to school. We got back really late as it was and then one of the girls found out her friend from home died so we hung out with her and prayed with her and so I was up until 2 am and then woke up at 7am to go to York for the day. We wandered around York all day and hung out with Katey, Orion, Trevor, Tim and Issac and just walked around really. Its gorgeous and such a sweet town. We got back here and had a wonderful talent show. Pretty much one of the best events that was happened here, it was so much funny and sooooo funny. I laughed and cheered so hard. My jaw hurt from all the laughing and screaming. Its hard to believe that is our last Saturday we have here and then today was the last church service and so everyone got dressed up and looked so nice. Ian spoke on Psalm 23 and how the Lord is our shephard, he talked about how a shephard wants to watch his sheep grow, and wants to lead them and he always knows where they are, he knows each of the sheep. And it is exactly like God. Tonight we have a sharing evening, so telling of out time here. Last week, and so the count down begins, I leave school on Friday and I am home on the 11th of April. Love you and cant wait to be home again!!!!

So we have left Capernwray for 10 days this last week really did fly by and so will these next 3 weeks. So a brief recap of the week, if I can remember all that even happened. I am not sure if I can but it was a busy week full of last minute prep for outreach. Mon-thurs we had lectures on Philippians by Andy Thomas and we had Getting the King out of the Boy by Rob again. We had a lot of group time and we did interactive group where we played games and we had our last new testament group and we talked and encouraged each other for outreach. We also had a lot of work to do for outreach and so I worked on my message that I am giving next Sun, I am hoping it goes well I feel like it will go wonderfully. I swam a lot this week and spent time talking with people and hanging out with whoever. A very memorable moment was thursday when a girl named Danae and my dear friend Trevor had themselves a wedding at school. They got married. I don't know why and it wasn't actually real, but I guess since James could have a lot of fake girl friendsthey could have a legit fake wedding. They really went all out, with photographer and a DJ and bridesmaids, groomsmen's and don't forget the family and friends. They dressed up did a photo shoot even had bachelorette and bachelor Party and a reception thursday evening. It was quite the event, a bit ridiculous but a lot of fun to be had. This week was a tad emotion, I found out about Mj getting into an accident and then a lot of stress and drama at school. Its all a bit irrelevant when you think about it but it has been hard, and has made me realize I am ready to go home but at the same time now being away from school and home I want to go back to school. I miss my friends from school.
So as you may know I am in Sale a place near Manchester for my outreach, which is 10 days long. We got here Friday around 5pm after getting lost for an hour we were suppose to get there at 4 but got lost and got stuck between two cars almost hitting one. Driving around here is insane truly, I don't think I would ever try driving around this place. And so Friday was youth group which started off with primary school group called Rock, which was crazy and loud and then there was the middle school aged group which is called Rockets. Last of all there was a group called Projects which is for the senior high aged kids. That one was a lot of fun, they talked and really got involved in the games. Sophie and Kat from our team went off to a cell group for teen girls, its what we know as a small group. They had a lot of fun getting to know the girls and they came back really excited for the week to come.
Saturday was a sort of busy day. For some reason I was just really exhausted and tired and had very little energy at all. However we did morning team time followed by a little bit of prayer visiting. Which is a very interesting experience, it is not really my cup of tea, I would rather talk to people over coffee or be behind the scene setting up. None the less this is all about doing new things and challenging myself. So we went out had a few no thanks and a yes for sure and a lot of no one being home. We went out in teams of two one church member with one Capernwray student. When we got back to the church we had set up for the Women's event in the evening. So  all the girls stayed behind for that and worked alongside Mary Loo from Canada and Emma who were in charge. So we set up tables, and decorated and did food prep, which is the fun part of a ob if you ask me. We went back to our host families and had dinner and then went back to enjoy the evening talking to people and eating lots of food. They had the desserts in little shot glasses and then there were all sorts of crafts and even some deco patch. We had to stay and clean up afterwards but overall it was good night. I got to talk to a few ladies from dublin and scotland originally who hadn't been to church in a while and were thinking of coming again.
Sunday is church of course and so me and Jochen went of to Sale West Church where Jochen did a message and I just got volunteered last minute to say a few things and then the rest of out team split up and did kids program. They did puppets and a drama as well as some kids worship, they were at Sale West as well as St. Marys. It was a long morning because following the service was a bring and share lunch and then a lot of chatting with the members. Now is just a time of rest and prep which will be followed by another evening service which I am looking forward to. We also have been eating so much food here I swear I have already gained 5lbs this week.
I am so very tired for some reason and I feel like I have a lot to do but I am not in the mood to prepare so pray for the strength to do the stuff I have to get done as well as sleep and health. I feel like I might be getting sick, I have also been waking up with weird dreams and becoming rather tired from a lack of proper sleep. Pray for my team as we go out to do more work this week that we may have strength and be able to fend off the enemy but also that all the stuff we have to do will go amazing. I have faith that we will do great and that God is going to use us in amazing ways. Oh as well pray for my friend Mj who is going for surgery on Monday to get a disc replaced in her neck.
Thanks I love you all and miss you as well. I am done school in 3 weeks and then traveling for 3 weeks Ill be home before you know it!!

Happy Birthday week to me and Valentines to everyone else

Okie dokie, well ladies and gents, lets see my life has been a roller coaster of emotions. Beginning of the week started of better then las week probably becuase I had an absolutely amazing weekend with some wonderful people. Plus the factor that tuesday was my B-Day and making me now 19 and legal to drink in any place in Canada, YEAH! Don't worry it doesnt mean that much to me other then i can now go into a pub at home and eat good pub food. I have already been doing that here. Recap of the week Sun was church and we had students do our evening service and then this guy from the states do the morning service. In the middle of the day me and Christy made cup cakes for interactive group on monday, that pretty much sums up sunday leading then into monday which was interactive group all the people from BC, well half of us from B.C in one room for an hour, which equals a lot of craziness. We are one of the loudest and craziest groups and we usually just play games and talk. Christy and I lead it and we did a little bit on love and then made valentines cards and talked and ate and played four on a couch. We also did New testament discussion group and yeah. Tuesday was my Birthday and Valentines day for those who did not know my Birthday lands on that day every year. Which kind a sucks kinda doesnt. I get a lot of love from everyone. Me and a few girls went out for coffee/tea and just kinda hung out. I got a lot of notes and cards and they had a little dance party in the evening. I also had to write out my essay and so I stayed up late to write it. I got to talk to my mommy and Jessica which was great fun. I had two valentines this year, the first one being Trevor my dear old Ginger friend from California and then a guy from Wisconsin named Nathan, just for the fun of it. Trevor actually got me chocolate and a really sweet note that was so funny. As you may now know or not know, I am single that is right. Quickest but longest relationship. Being here it felt like 2 years but really it was 2 months, I have rather mixed emotions but it is for the good of both and we are still going to be friends when we get home, until then who knows. But moving on... I went onto Wed feeling rather loved indeed and so I had a great day and felt like I can get through and survive. This week of lectures was only mon-wed and we had the guy from the states name Jim Wright and he talked on Acts and the church. He was really cool and you could defiantly tell he had passion however by the end of the week I had enough, he talked a lot! Which was great but also tiring becuase he would go till 9 15 pm. And by that point you were exhausted. We also had Rob start a new lecture series on Getting the King out of the Boy, talking on David becoming King. Thursday was suppose to be reflecting and prayer day and so it was decent. I got time to my self to think and pray and just relax and not feel pressure and loudness around me. I also later got a chance to go out for a walk with Olivia Abbot who is from Victoria B.C. It was nice because we both have long legs and both love walking fast and far distrances and we have similar personalites. It was a lot of fun, however a  lot of fun and a good emotional high must apparently always be followed by a large drop in the rollercoaster. Not to sound all the depressed but Friday was kind of a depressing day, it was cloudy and rainy and really was a lie in bed and do nothing day, which was followed by murder mystery. Saturday we went to Kendal with a handful of girls and we went to this sweet tea shop that was 8 floors tall and was an old inn. It was adorable and I loved it. We also did some good retail therapy and I got some adorable shirts for really cheap at the second hand shop. Later in the evening we had what was called a Capernrace, a spin off of the amazing race. It was a lot of fun there was 11 different challenges around the school which we had to go to with our team of 12 people and we had to complete all these random challenges under 10 mins and for under a min we got 1000 points and for 2 mins it was 900, every min it took we lost 100 points. The teams were put into interactive groups which was fun, our group is the crazy fun competive ones and so we were all there and we got 3rd place for points and got back 2nd and so we then got to do one final challenge which required swiming to get coins that had dates to answer the questions. And guess what we won, so exciting!! We get to have a pizza party when we get back from 10 day out reach. And now we are at Sunday once again, I swear time flies here it really does. Its crazy we have a week till 10 day outreach, then we are gone for 10 days and then we get back and we have a week and a half left before we leave to either go home or travel, I am travelling then coming home. April 11th.
I have lots to do, I have a message to prepare for 10 day outreach plus I need to update my testimony and I need to do Bible reading and study for a quiz I failed and I need to finish last minute travel plans and every little detail. This week I want to have all my plans done and ready to go before I go away for 10 day. The stress is kicking in and its not a great feeling. But I remembering to look to God for strength because it is only through him that I can do it all. So I just that you pray for the stress in my world, that I might be able to get it all done in time and not worry too much about 10 day outreach and just be at peace with that and travelling. Also pray for health and safety, I want to be well and not injured for travelling or outreach and this is a time that Satan will attack and he has already been attacking in everyway he can. We have outreach leaders sick and we plans going astray as well distractions that have been thrown at everyone.
A lot of me is ready to come home and see everyone again. I ready to leave this place and not have to see people and to relax a little and be in a normal environment. Have you ever tried to avoid someone when you live with them, its pretty hard and not a realistic expectation. I am also excited to see everyone at home and eat food I want. Yet today I was realising that I am not quite ready to leave. I am going to miss the beauty of this place and all it has to offer. It is gorgeous. I went for a walk in sweater with the sun beating down on my back and wind in my hair and I could hear the sheep baahhing and the birds chirping. It is nice in the sense you are out in the middle of no where and so a lot of the distractions of home are taken away yet at the same time it would be nice to be able to do what I want when I want. I also love always having someone to hang out with or talk to, it has been so awesome this past week because I can usually find someone to walk with or talk with. I come home really soon or so it feels and so one more time I love you and miss you. Hope all is well back home

When Life hands you lemons...God will give you strength

This is week one, I was lazy and didnt get a chance to post it. So this week was a back to normal week here at Capernwray. We had an essay on Apologetics due wed which had the questions about how do you know God and Jesus exist, why does God allow suffering and what is a Christian worldview. It was a jamed packed essay that made you really think and dig deep into why you believe. Also we had a memory verse quiz on thursday which I most likely failed, I wouldnt be surprised mainly because I mixed up one of the verses. Other then that we had two guest lectures who were married name Joan and Sam and they taught on Christian Dynamics, and focused on the book of Jonah. It was a really encouraging lecture series and also very applicable to our lives. Both Sam and Joan had very interesting stories on how they came to know God and how they met, it was cool to hear and they were very real with us. Our other lecture this week was by Kin Lee on World Religion so we went over Mormonism, Muslim and Budism . It was cool but I am not a big fan on Kim lee something about her makes if hard to listen to she almost always looks like she is confused or unsure of what she is talking about.
Friday was Marriage Seminar and also Social night, which is where staff memebers let students to come and watch movies or host games. However there are only so many slots and so we didnt do anything and instead I hung out with Trevor from cali and Orion (my team leader from Saskactewan) and Kristen from the Maritimes. We decided to try and figure out some prank of sorts to do that wouldnt harm or get anyone mad and so we rearranged Mark the man in charges room. We left him chocolate and a nice note. We came up with other ideas as well.
Saturday we went to lancaster did internet, stayed for pizza hut and then came back hung out here. Watched Gilmore girls and just kinda chilled with trying to come up with something to do and so we made plans and lists and had a great time.
Sunday was church and just a quite day to chill and relax. I went for numerous amounts of walks and took time to pray and be alone but also spend with other girls as well.
Then we are now on the current week, sorry if this confuses you in any way. Trust me my own brain has been a little mumble jumble the last few weeks. Any how how lectures this week were focused to our 10 day outreach which is in two weeks time. So I went to two seminars one on preaching and the other on youth work, both were really good. I think overall I learned more in preaching then youth work, but we did play games in youth work. We also had other short lectures this week on various other things like building relationships (that one was funny becuase they did role playing of what not to do on 10 day) and we had evangelism and safe work something and a few other short ones.
Other then lectures this week has been a lot of walking 2 to 3 a day with various girls around the school, I beginning to build better relationships with them and just hanging out more. I also went to town this week and got yarn so I can either learn to crochet or knit one or the other. Wed morning our family group had breakfast so we had pancakes, eggs, toast and bacon not amercian bacon though.  Friday was probably the most exciting day, I got to clean the dining hall ya!!! But I also got a hair cut which is even more Yeah!!!! So I now have hair which is 2" shorter and has layers and I have side bangs again !!! Its fantastic it really made me feel so much fresher and better. This week has been a hard week I have to say, I have been in a bit of a slump and not overly too excited  about life. The hair cut helped and I got to hang out with two amazing girls, Ali from Wisconsin and Megan from Saskactewan. The rest of the night was spent chillin in the lounge, while other people play dodge ball and then there was a ridiculous dance off. It was between the two Lukes for a girl. Silly I know. Before Lock up and after the dance off 5 of us ( Orion, Trevor, Katey, and Andy ) went off to walk the loop and make a fire over by the bonfire pit. It was a blast, really was, we made hot dogs and had chips and were out probably till about 1. It was a relaxing evening, with lots of boyish behaviour and fun times. I got back late and had a nice hot shower for once.
I actually slept in on Saturday and went to brunch and then I had a nice and relaxing day at the cafe at the end of the canal with Ali, Megan and Chelsea. We hadnt walked very far at all when Brady our RA drove by and we convinced him to drive us there. We got there and Ali taught me how to crochet and she worked on homework and Chelsea journaled. Megan ran there and met us there a hour or so later. We had fruit scones and tea. It was such a nice and relaxing afternoon. I loved every moment of it. These 3 girls are absolutely amazing, they are such a God send in so many ways. I wish I had gotten to know them better first term but you know what better late then never. Two of them are from Wisconsin and I know one more girl here who I am good friends with who is from there as well and so when I get home I am hoping to go for a road trip to visit the 3 of them. The rest of saturday was great there was a group of about 6 girls who went out for dinner to this italien place. We went for my birthday and Maddie (my roommates birthday which on the 22nd) birthday. It was a lot of fun to get out and relax and eat some amazing food.
Sunday Sunday Sunday the end of a interesting week. We had an amazing speaker this sunday who is speaking all week. I am looking forward to what he has to say. I also made cupcakes for interactive group and I did some more crocheting and walking. Its a typical day at Capernwray.
Love you lots and its another 59 days till I come home April 11th

God is Love

Week three of Semester 2 and only 6 more weeks to go. It's such a crazy thought to think that school ends for me in a matter of a month and a half and 10 of those days we are on out reach. So really for those who are missing my wonderfully beautiful face and my incredible personality no need to worry I will be home before you know it. Well add in another few weeks of travelling to the 6 weeks and it'll more likely be about 9 ish weeks. I am very excited to go home but also not so excited. I am very mixed emotions about the whole situation still. Going home means i have to find a job and go back to normal school and a life that I have to be alone a lot. Here there is always people to be around but going home means normal food no more roommates, a hot shower every night, I can go where I want when I want. I love this place I really do, I wouldnt trade it for anything in this world but it has its advantages and disadvantages as does any place really.
Well Shall i recap my pretty uneventful week for you. I managed to learn a lot this week or at least get some nice reminders. Sunday was suppose to be my day to do homework and meet with people and go walk the canal, however my old roomies forgot to let me know that they wanted to go to town. So they convinced me to go after agreeing to talk about the essay I hadn't yet started. So we walked to carforth where we had to taxi to Lancaster becuase nothing not even trains are open on a Sunday around here. No that many people actually go to church. So in Lancaster pretty much we went to Pizza hut and had dinner, which was amazing. Pizza is sooo good. We headed back here where we had evening service and bed time.
Mon through thursday is lectures as usual. However Monday was essay writing day, I started 6:30 in the morning and got 800 words and then finished the next morning. Don't worry I didn't work straight through I had classes and food eating times and add in some meetings and a few breaks for snacks plus talking and our new favourite past time around here Gilmore Girls. My essay did get done eventually. I am now just hoping that it actually passes. Tues-thurs I just kinda hung out had a few meetings, talked to people typical Capernwray day.
So our lectures this week were pretty intense we had Rob doing Early Life of Abraham. We finally finished the lecture series, kinda sad I really enjoyed all that he had to say. This week he was focusing on Relational Conflict within the church but also with people just in general. It was really neat becuase he talked about the different ways we deal with conflict and with people and how we react and why we do. What he was saying was things that I feel like we should all know. It was a really great series for I think everyone in the room whether you could use the information now or later. We also had a guest lecturer this week names Rick Bundshaw, who helped write Soul Surfer. He is from Hawii, he did a pretty good job, he spoke on the Economy of God. Which is kinda hard to explain but it was all on the idea of how the world views things and how so often we as christians take in these worldy views when we should be using christian/kingdom values. There is more but some of its complicated in how to explain.
Our week ended on a pretty decent note overall. Friday groups started to leave and so there was about 50 of us left for the night some to leave in the morning others to stay the weekend here. I stayed friday night in my room by my self and relaxed and watched a few movies and then left sat morning. We were all heading off to different parts of the UK for outreach weekend. So pretty much it involved us going there being introduced to the church and various other groups of people, we were also told the massive list of things we have to prepare and how jam packed our 10 days will be. We are pretty much doing it all, I lucked out and I get to preach infront of one of the churches. There is so much I could tell. It was an amazing weekend, I am staying at this host family with my friend Sophie and then our other team members are spead out amoung 4 other familes. The lady we are staying with is super sweet. We watched the Iron lady with her and then Sunday after church she sent us out with a map and me and Sophie walked around town. Overall a great weekend, we ended with a really good evening church service where a girl younger then me preached. She was really good and confident she spoke on the being part of a war and being the army of God. It was an awesome reminder that I can do it, I can go out and I can do this outreach. I am so excited to be stretched and pulled and challenge my self.
I ask for prays over my relationship with God may grow but also my friends here as well. Also that when I am and everyone else leaves this place that we might remember the lessons we learn and continue to grow and havea  relationship with God. Another prayer request is for our outreach group and that we might grow and become united and encourage each other but also glorify God in all that we do.
I hope all is going well at home, I miss you and love you guys and Ill be home in about 9 weeks :) !!

'I can do everything through Him who gives me strength' Phil 4:13

So week 2 of being back and so far it has started out on a pretty decent note. Sunday is the day that is filled with lots of hour or so free time. Those hour free times make the perfect time for naps. I find that so far this semester I have slept so much, I nap frequently dont know why I just do. I nap with my rest of my roommates making for some good bonding time. It's actually quite funny becuase in my old room no one really liked naps and so you just didnt do it, you feel weird when you are just napping in a room with 4 other girls how ever two of my other roommates now love to nap.So now if you find one person napping you will usually join them and so it is perfectly normal to find at least one person sleeping in my room. Our room is great we all go to bed fairly early and we nap and everyone knows it and yet our room is where ever one comes to hang out during the day and watch gilmore girls. Anywho the rest of sunday was good we had a worship night where we also got to meet and hear from our guest lecturer for the week. His name is Ian Leitch, which some of you might have heard of. He has written a quite a few Christian books and he has been all over the world a few million times. He is about 72 years old and almost died from a heart condition last year, yet he still managed to fly to North america som crazy amount of times. It was so nice to have him here, he has such a dry witty sense of humour and the things he said sometimes was so hard to believe he actually said it. But it was good none the less he taught on Apolegetics and it was sweet to have a greater knowledge of why I believe what I believe. This week we also had Rob Whittaker our Principle continue his series on Early life of Abraham and then we had Andy Thomas one of the staff begin a series on Philippians. And then we have begun lectures for our 10  day outreach in Feb. We leave Feb 24 and we are gone for 10 days so I think its March 4 when we get back. We are going to the churches next weekend. So prayer for my team and just in general for student body as we go out and meet these people we will be working with. Pray also for team building that we will learn to work together and get along just so that we can grow and be a well functioning team. We are the biggest group of about 12 students, so it should be interesting.
What else happened this week well everyone has been getting sick, there was a flu going around that a few people have gotten. There is also a cold that everyone seems to have gotten. Including Zach and so it seems to have hit him hard, he has been tired and exhausted all week and so he has pretty much been sleeping as much as possible. So hoping that this cold passes and we can move on. You literally cant go more then a month here with out being sick, its ridiculous. Other then that this week has been pretty uneventful, we started doing pictures for the year book and two of my roommates have had birthdays. I have also been out walking with lots of different girls this week and just getting to know them better. I have been in bed early and woken up early all week. I am becoming a morning person i wake up before my alarm even goes off at 6:00 am and I am out of bed with no problem. Its really weird, well for me at least. I have also been watching a lot of Gilmore Girls this week with a few girls. Its funny how you can start the show and if people walk by they will stop and join you and you end up with about 7 girls just watching it and laughing.
Oh Friday was seminar day so we had this seminar called Confidence Gym it was for the girls and then the boys had there own little seminar. It was good it got me thinking about just how poor of confidence I actually have and how what I say affects me in more ways then I think it does. Its now one of my goals for this semester is to just think more postively and not to let the negative thoughts come out or take control. Also on friday night we did another worship night focusing on not just hearing and reading what the word says but by going on and applying it to you and doing what it says. So often we read what our bibles say and we go to church and hear what the pastor has to say but we do nothing about it. We sit around saying that we arent sinning by following the law. But its just as to sit and do nothing about what you hear as it is to break a law. So my ramble is go out and do something get off your butt and listen to what God has to say to you. Hey dont worry I am not perfect this is just as much as a reminder to me as it is to you. I am still working on getting off my butt and taking the things I learn and applying it to my daily life. Its not easy by any stretch of the imagination but it is something we have to do.
Saturday was suppose to be my productive day I got up bright and early my usual 6:30 in the am and when down to the castle where I got to skype my fam damily. It was pretty sweet I must say i havent gotten to see any of them in about 4 months and they showed me the house a little bit. The only time I can actually video is 6 30 in the morning on a saturday when no one else is up because people get mad plus it slows the internet for about everyone else around here. I also got all my reading done and I got a little work on my essay before we went out to Lancaster to just hang out and chill. We got back here where I felt like crap, i have been having stomach issues again which doesnt bother me that much it just is slightly annoying. We watched super 8 or something like that before heading to bed. My new bed time is about 10:30pm which is really early for me. Any who hope you guys are enjoying the snow for those back home, we have none just wind and cold and wet, which is fine. Lots of love moriah